Tuesday, June 24, 2014

what really matters

one afternoon on the beach; taken with Rolleiflex T + lomography XR 50-200
comes to me even though I don't go get it. I just go with the flow. I'm just here, just passive, but try my best to do what little I can do to help a few who need me.

Monday, June 23, 2014

ひまわりの日

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I just can't believe it was taken in 2005, and that four years have passed since, either.
Tabi in a laundry basket

Sunday, June 15, 2014

うつろし

去年の今頃だったか、2年前の今頃だったか、友だちに誘われて少しだけ遠出して入ったお店でヤマアジサイ(店の名も紫陽花の名
も忘れた)が売られていた。枝振りが野性的で同時に繊細で、ああどうしよう、買おうかな、でも枯らしてしまうかも、と買わずに帰ってから母にそのことを話したら、買えばよかったのに、と言われたことを思い出した。
うちの荒れ庭で長年咲いていた紫陽花、けっこう枝が伸びていたのもあって父が去年短く切ってしまったら、今年は全く花をつけていない。それどころか、ドクダミや他の雑草に地面がおおわれて、紫陽花は何処に??の状態。
紫陽花がない6月。近所を歩いていたらあのヤマアジサイのことを思い出したのでした。

I saw a pot of wild hydrangea at a strange shop at this time one or two years ago. I was deadly attracted to it; the way the branches was so beautiful. Yet I didn't buy it, afraid of having it die (I am really bad at growing plants). And there was a thick bunch of hydrangea in our tiny garden for more than 15 years. Last summer after the flowers bloomed, my father cut the branches short as usual. Now it seems to have died. Fish herb is more lush than last years and covers the ground. I miss the hydrangea and remember the wild hydrangea of the shop, regretting not buying it.

photos: taken in the neighborhood on June 14, 2014

Sunday, June 08, 2014

睡眠麻痺

I am your guardian angel.
いわゆる金縛り。原因ははっきりわかっている。眠りの時間がバラバラ、その上明るい時間に寝てばかりいるから。それでも、初めて体験すると怖いものでした。理解と感覚は別物。よし、ここは気合だ!って思っても目を開けることすらできない。しばらくしたらちゃんと起きられたけど、まだ気持ち悪いし頭が重い…ググったら仰向け寝だとなりやすいとあり、びっくり。(金縛りになったときは横向きになってたけど)

I have experienced sleep palsy for the first time. It's kind of weird that it's the first time because I have spent these 20 years having unhealthy sleeping habit; I sleep late and I sleep a lot in the daytime especially these 10 years. Anyway, my first sleep palsy felt frightening. I feel dead tired now. To avoid sleep palsy, you might as well keep early hours, and lie down on your side.